Life, Love, and The End of Days

Here I am, 19 years old. High school graduate, honorable military discharge, and a degree from the National Geospatial-Intelligence Agency. Sounds like a decent resume for someone of my age, but even the process of buying a car eludes me. I feel that I have a decent grasp of the way the world works, in that you have to be as cruel and unforgiving as it is in order to survive. Although this idea is prominent in my mind, I have a hard time applying it to day-to-day actions.
While I was looking through my past blogs on different websites, I found this one. I wrote it when I was sixteen.
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"I am frantically searching to find that love again and end up falling in love with every girl I see. I have stability issues- I want a girl that I can date and be with for a while. Which is the opposite of every other guy out there. They want to be with a girl and make-out with her or get whatever he can and then leave. Sex had never really meant much to me, and I dont have to have it. In all actuallity, if you think about it, which is more meaningful- a goodbye kiss, or a make-out session? Having sex, for falling asleep together after spending all day at the park? idk- maybe im crazy."
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It is a little juvenile, but the concept still applies to my feelings at this point. I do believe that I have found someone worth putting effort into. Aleksandra Nicole Trombly. Words cannot describe the feelings that I have for her, and I haven't felt them in years. I love you babygirl.
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With religion, I do believe that it clouds the minds of the people who control our world today, be it officially or unofficially. Wars fought over religion cannot be won, therefore there is no reason for waging them. I honestly believe that the bible is not fact. It is a series of anecdotes, like Aesops Fables, meant to guide mankind to a more just and peaceful world. I do think that the end of days is coming, but there will be no Anti-Christ, no plagues, no fire and brimstone so to speak. It will be because some religious radical was equipped with weapons that shouldn't exist.